I am one of your sorrows,
And also a partner of tomorrow.
I was twelve when I wrote this. Name of the poem was ‘Memories’.
I happened to stumble upon one of my personal diaries from school. A series of laughs and tears flooded my head. The diary had been with me through the times when I had lost my mother. And hence the transition in my writing, expressions is almost synchronous with the events.
But what completely surprised me was that given this is now close to eighteen years to the present date, I haven’t really changed much.
Stickler to routines and planning ahead. This one too has many of my Sundays planned down to last minute. For example:
6th July
- Topic for General Knowledge studies- USA
- Personality to study- Leonardo Da Vinci
- Article to be written- Woes of being a teenager
- Novel- Da Vinci Code
- New thing in personality- Control anger, be more polite to people
- Project-
- Indulgence- Can go out either on Saturday or Sunday
I am still laughing re-reading this. Cause this is so me! I still do this. I will make random schedule notes in the middle of the day. And plan my weekend the most. Maybe because I know inside that a wasted holiday will pull me down the entire week.
Yeah, nerd. That’s just me!
But seriously again notice how I am even today doing similar things. Still making notes on being polite to people (and failing miserably!). Still forcing myself to go out and have fun and not be guilty about it. Even today I am a wiki addict on holidays. And reading up extensively on a personality or a country is so me!
Is this true then? Have we only re-discovered ourselves over the last few years to be nothing but extensions of our childhood? Is behavior like DNA perhaps not changeable after all?
I ask you tonight if you were to pin point a character in you which can be traced back to your childhood, what would it be?
Connecting it with #MondayMusings
Blog group O negative. That is so random. ????
But I kind of love the idea of me being so rare! O negative is 1.2 % in world 😀
Loved your post very much. Old memories are always sweet.
Aren’t they? 🙂
True, Richa. In many ways, we do remain in essence the same person we were as children, only life lessons shape us up to make sense of our experiences as we grow older and have more time to reflect. I couldn’t help but laugh thinking of how my 11 year-old also loves to plan his weekend more (albeit with similar logic, of course!). I too carry traits in me that are rooted in childhood…too many to put down here, perhaps will turn them into a post for another day 🙂
Your eleven year old has a tough nerdy road ahead then 😀 Will look forward to that post 🙂
ha! look at you! Somethings do not change.
Me – I think I am the same – earlier with books now reading on laptop, I still make lists before travelling and giving gyaan. This is one thing I can’t let you. Narrating life stories 🙂
I love lists! And gyaan, which you know by now 😀
When I was in school I was very organised with a to do list. Now I live life spontaneously. It’s a whole lot easier and definitely more enjoyable.
It is almost as if you turned 180 degree! I cannot imagine doing that right now 🙂
Ah so lovely! Before I read the whole post, I saw the list and said to myself ‘This sounds like Richa today!’ 😉
I guess my quality of listening in to random conversations when around people is still a part of me.
Haha didn’t this list sound that? I honestly still have these kind of notes in my diary 🙂
Your random conversations make interesting conversations further 😀
Your diary notes made me smile. Reminded me of my own diaries. Oh yes, our childhood experiences and behaviour shapes us as an adult. That is why they say that the foundation during child development has to be right!
True Shilpa so much depends on it right?
This little Richa is ditto the current Richa….absolutely! I totally agree when you say we are but extensions of our childish selves! My mom often bemoans the fact that I haven’t outgrown some of my not so likable traits since childhood! Beautiful post my dear!
Thanks Kala 🙂 But then while she bemoans on the bad traits there could be many good qualities that seed your life even today 🙂
I pressed my head hard to remember what was that one thing from my childhood that has remained with me till date and I could not recall anything. A question for me – ‘Have I turned into a fossil?’ A fossil, may be not yet. I used to write diary entries as a 14-15 year old daily before sleeping and would guard it dearly from everyone else. My younger brother was always after it trying to excavate it from different dumps. One day I caught him reading it. I got so pissed off that I glued every page of it and vouched never to write a diary ever again. And, today I am doing the same thing, I am writing my diary on my blog but devoid of the teenage issues. Extension of childhood.
We wonder if our blogs can still be called devoid of teenage issues…But yes we are always an extension of childhood
We do discover ourselves, the child within after years. I had this habit of writing script of films..hehe..How stupid it looked but it made us creative. Such letters that you wrote shows where your true calling lies, Richa:)
Really film scripts? What fun ya! Must share snippets some day 🙂
Well, I wish I could go back to the 12 year old me…I was a much better person then..I believed in the good in the world and I was not bitter…Life experiences have made me bitter and angry in so many ways..I have changed so much and I’m not sure I like the new me entirely
I am sure that those changes are not irreversible, deep down we are all the same goody goody sweets 🙂
I m glad you are still an extension of your childhood. I have changed , in many things. I have complaints. I was contented. I knew what I wanted , had clearly planned it. Now I dont know what I want. But your post let me ponder over my childhood again. Wonderful post!
Or Ramya perhaps there were less wants and hence clarity. No?
This is so me as well! I have hundreds of things to do today lists like this. Some times when I randomly find such things when I go home, I laugh. Nothing has changed! 😛
As discussed, you and I are two souls swimming in a pond la!
Did not know you were a Lucknow girl!! I was born there 🙂
Finding your old diary is like te behst trip down memory lane. Hope you enjoy reading the little snippets 🙂
We need to exchange notes on that soon 🙂
Did not know you were a Lucknow girl!! I was born there 🙂
Finding your old diary is like te behst trip down memory lane. Hope you enjoy reading the little snippets
heyy!!! I too make notes like that… right in the middle of doing something… doesn’t matter what time or day… I thought I was the crazy one who adds something as ridiculous as clipping nails on the to do list 😛 My diary is filled with all my ‘important’ goals for the day. This post really made me smile 🙂 I am somewhat same … a little more bold and a little less lazy (or so I believe) 🙂
I know! Clipping nails is an important activity. Let no one tell you other wise 😀
It’s always lovely to go back to the past and rekindle those memories of the days gone by :). By the way interesting to note that you were in La Martinere :D.
Haha now why the lamartiniere and 😀 ??
I had a diary for a brief period in seventh grade, but then got bored of it. So I switched to maintaining a journal from eighth grade, and I only record the best memories of my life in that journal 😀
I never used to make lists for planning my study schedule till this year. 12th Boards taught me the importance of time management, specially when I had to manage my blogging time and being-with-friends time too! 😀
This post made me go read my journal again 🙂
haha being with friends time. That is still so me 😀